I'm on the verge of having this whole summer slip through my hands without accomplishing anything on my to-do list. I'm not exactly sure why this is; I just know that I am avoiding structure like crazy. This is a very dramatic departure from someone who is the queen of lists, of long-term planning, of running simulations of every possible outcome. I just don't want to do it anymore.
We cancelled our Memorial weekend plans (we were headed up to Traverse City so that Millard could run the Bayshore half marathon) but we do a few plans in order for the summer. We also have a task list a mile long that I've also been avoiding. Like I said, I don't know what's up. I just know that I need to let go for a while and let someone else steer the ship.
I'm presently preparing for my mom's surgery; it's serious enough to keep her hospitalized for at least a week. My preparation is minimal--it involves me, along with my laptop and iPhone, camping out in the surgical suite and then her room for the next week or so. I have told work that they will hear from me whenever I can manage it and they will just need to cope. My first priority, when I can catch a few moments of my own, will be to see my husband and my dogs. Gotta see my dogs. I think I've learned this "live in the moment" stuff from them. They are my new gurus.
An aside--I aced both classes in the winter term! I'm going on to advanced web programming in the fall. Who knew that I was a programmer? What have I been doing in management all these years? Oh yeah, the paycheck . . . .
And so it goes.
P.S. I wrote this page in HTML!